Lilly Jay is breaking her silence about her devastating divorce from Ethan Slater, and it’s clear that this is a painful chapter in her life that was made even more difficult by the media attention surrounding Ariana Grande and the Wicked movie. In her recent essay, Jay opens up about the heartbreak she’s been through since her split from Ethan, and how the entire situation has turned her world upside down.

A Love That Fell Apart

Lilly Jay and Ethan Slater’s relationship started as a fairytale – high school sweethearts who later got married and welcomed their first child. But everything changed when Ethan joined the cast of Wicked and his on-set relationship with Ariana Grande quickly became public. It wasn’t long before Ethan left Lilly for the pop star, leaving her to pick up the pieces of their broken marriage while navigating life as a new mother.

In her emotional essay titled How Does My Divorce Make You Feel?, Lilly reflects on the immense pain she’s been carrying. She writes that, like most people, she never expected to get divorced, especially not after becoming a mother. “No one gets married thinking they’ll get divorced,” Lilly shares, revealing just how unexpected and painful the end of her marriage was. But her pain didn’t stop there – now, she had to deal with her husband’s new relationship being thrust into the spotlight, as Ariana Grande became a worldwide sensation, and Wicked was set to take over the big screen.

The Public Scrutiny

Lilly, a clinical psychologist specializing in women’s mental health, explains how her life has been turned upside down not only because of her divorce but also because of the overwhelming public attention that came with it. As Ethan moved on with Ariana, Lilly became a public figure in her own right, not by choice, but due to the media frenzy surrounding the couple’s breakup.

She shares a deeply personal moment when, eight months pregnant, she walked into a children’s hospital to meet with a patient. Despite being visibly pregnant, no one acknowledged her condition, and Lilly believes this was because people were too focused on the image of a happy, new couple – Ethan and Ariana – to see her pain. “They looked away,” she writes, describing the emotional distance she felt from the world around her during this difficult time.

The Struggles of Motherhood and Heartbreak

In her essay, Lilly reflects on the emotional toll of motherhood, writing, “Motherhood I have learned fills your time but not your mind.” While raising her son, Lilly has struggled to come to terms with the sudden public collapse of her marriage. She expresses how the constant media attention, especially surrounding Wicked, made everything harder to bear. “Days when I can’t escape the promotion of a movie associated with the saddest days of my life are darker,” she confesses.

Lilly also writes about how her professional life as a therapist has been impacted by her personal pain. Even though she’s an expert in mental health, the emotional weight of her divorce has been nearly impossible to navigate. Her grief is something she couldn’t easily compartmentalize, and the pressure of managing a public breakup while raising a child has made it even harder for her to heal.

Moving Forward with Hope

Despite the heartbreak and public scrutiny, Lilly is finding hope for the future. She writes, “In the absence of the life I planned with my high school sweetheart, a lifetime of sweetness is waiting for me and my child.” Through all the emotional turmoil, Lilly is determined to move forward, focusing on her son and the life they will build together.

She acknowledges that while the pain of her divorce and Ethan’s relationship with Ariana is still fresh, she’s finding strength in the love she has for her son and the resilience she’s discovering within herself.

Conclusion

Lilly Jay’s essay gives a raw and emotional glimpse into her life after her divorce from Ethan Slater. It’s a heartbreaking story of a woman who never expected to find herself in such a situation, especially after becoming a mother. The media frenzy surrounding Ariana Grande and the Wicked movie has only compounded the pain, but Lilly remains hopeful for the future, focusing on rebuilding her life for her son. Through her words, Lilly shows immense strength and resilience, proving that even in the darkest of times, there is always room for healing and growth.